what happens when.........

hiii dears....... After a lot of time, m back again..Wid sems hanging over head and wid me starting just the ABC of 2nd MBBS, I don't know how m going to stand this exam.... I ve beem the most insincere, the laziest, the most frustrated student this year.....Wid the session starting right at the mid of the year in sept, I really dont know how the being within me died...Neither had I interest for studies nor for parties or whatever...Simply the worst times surpassed...December was bit good for I was actively involved in my function and other social activities and my devil mind had stopped working for some time.But I ve always felt this was my worst part of life..And then the new year......OOPS......Sorry.HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU....I had forgotten...Actually, this new year I had no celebrations, just alone in my room, I slept as much as I could coz I feel sleeping is the best part of my life...And then the new year news wasn't that good as we came to know that our sems are just about to knock our doors...M really not prepared......Most of the time, I ve taken a backseat in the class with no interest to listen, sometimes sleeping, sometimes in a different world writing poems and all such nonsense activities.....Sometimes feeling sad and sometimes happy wid no reasons...I really don't know if this happens wid u all or just me or just it is a 'teenache'..well, m no more a teen but I think the hangover is still there...I know some of my readers must be going through this "what to do?" phase.....Right? Yeah..Then, my this post is really going to work as an antidote for you all...Yesterday, as usual, I was sitting saddy saddy on my bed, conversing wid my peers.." Yaar, kya bekar life hai? kabhie koi acha chiz to mere saath hota hi nahi..." Actually,I was very upset for one of my those 'bubbly bubbly' dreams shattered..I was expecting a guitar tutor and for some reasons I had to quit from the classes.Learning guitar is one of my child hood dreams which m unable to accomplish till date. I just love to tap my feet to the tune of it.But the dream just remained a dream..I just felt..Why me? Whenever I think of something, it disappears...Its so heart breaking...I was literally breaking down with tears rolling my plumpy cheeks...My friends decided to take a stroll in the market just to modulate my mood..We were just wandering when my eyes caught a book.."WHAT HAPPENS TO GOOD PEOPLE WHEN BAD THINGS HAPPEN" by Robert A. Schuller.Its a free advice for u all to read that book atleast once....See how magically it works..It seemed as if it was written for me or for people like me who just wander in all thoughts trying to understand the mystery of life...So in this post ,I just wanted to elucidate some lines for u all for I know u ld get many answers to many of ur unsolved questions..So here are they..."It is not easy to understand or accept, but the most wonderful blessings of life can be experienced during the worst of times...When u are in pain, that's a time when the glory of God can be revealed in new ways..Just don't worry,He can put all of the seemingly discordant pieces of ur life together into a cohesive and beautiful whole..Just trust Him for He honours those who Honour Him..He will bring all the right things before you in the right time and when He feels its time that u now deserve ur cherished dream.. Just close ur eyes and think about this for a moment: If u have ever gone through a tough time in life and you thought it was the worst but when u look back on it, it would definitely seem that it wasn't that bad.." Even I remember, when I had really a tough time, when I didn't want to come out of the blankets for I feared another new day, there was something behind me which kept me moving..Just to engage my mind, most of the time I used to sit with a pencil shading book in my hands n for the first time, I really felt I could create so beautiful sketches...So whatever happens its for a definite purpose..It just depends on us how we are going to search peace admist turmoil..just as m doing right now..For the sake of sharing these views wid u all, m consoling my heart...Atleast m happy for these few moments...For the next moments lets see wat 'ld happen!It's often true that tragedy brings the very best in you....Just the thing we need to do is stay calm, ve trust on ourselves and GOD, wait with patience till the right time comes...And what I feel, being happy is the only panacea which can make u sincere in your duties and live ur professional as well as personal life in a satisfactory way........ I don't know how boring u all must be feeling while reading my blogs as my friends always say m so boring but still.........Some or the other way, I think as I desire for many answers to my unheard questions, u all must be desiring tooo...n may be my blogs may a tiny help for you....And if no way my blogs seem interesting or inspiring or whatever goody goody adjectives, then m really sorry my dear readers for " me to bachpan se aisi hi hoon......Kya karun?"..............